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Ironic that this week's topic in TM is control, or lack thereof.
Lately, all I do is feel like I have no control over anything.
I feel like I'm constantly waiting for something. Moving day, pay day, the day when we'll actually have some semblence of normalcy again.
The worst part is, I constantly feel like I can't do anything else until these other things get done. I feel like I'm just in stasis, that none of the million other things I need to do can even be started until the other things are accomplished.
TM has been my coping mechanism for a long while now. The ironic thing is that everything there is in a holding pattern as well. And I keep saying I'll catch up on this, that, the other thing, and I find myself in the same situation. I feel like I can't get those things done either, until I have some idea of where I'm going.
It's slowly driving me nuts.
Yes, I know none of this makes any sense. I need to find the thread. The one that I can pull on and it all unravels. Only in this case, unraveling the rest of this would be a huge relief. But I can't find that one thread, that starting point.
Argh.
Lately, all I do is feel like I have no control over anything.
I feel like I'm constantly waiting for something. Moving day, pay day, the day when we'll actually have some semblence of normalcy again.
The worst part is, I constantly feel like I can't do anything else until these other things get done. I feel like I'm just in stasis, that none of the million other things I need to do can even be started until the other things are accomplished.
TM has been my coping mechanism for a long while now. The ironic thing is that everything there is in a holding pattern as well. And I keep saying I'll catch up on this, that, the other thing, and I find myself in the same situation. I feel like I can't get those things done either, until I have some idea of where I'm going.
It's slowly driving me nuts.
Yes, I know none of this makes any sense. I need to find the thread. The one that I can pull on and it all unravels. Only in this case, unraveling the rest of this would be a huge relief. But I can't find that one thread, that starting point.
Argh.
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